Haydi d\u00fcn, kaz\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn tortular\u0131n\u0131 ar\u0131n, toplan\u00a0 gidiyorsun.\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0Gitmek, en b\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc veda, yaz\u0131l\u0131p kendi roman\u0131na, koyulup kendi yoluna. S\u00fcr\u00fckle ayaklar\u0131n\u0131 rastgele, elbet var\u0131r bir yere.<\/p>\n
Hep istenen, d\u00fc\u015flenendir gitmek…<\/p>\n
Evden, i\u015ften, masadan, sokaktan, \u00e7izmekten, yazmaktan, \u00e7ok\u00e7a insandan ve dahi kendinden. Nereye giderse gitsin ad\u0131mlar, bilmeden.<\/p>\n
Bo\u011fuldu\u011fun sulardan, korktu\u011fun k\u0131y\u0131lardan, konu\u015ftu\u011fundan dokundu\u011fundan, oradan buradan…<\/p>\n
Sonsuzlu\u011funu aramaya, sonunu kucaklamaya.<\/p>\n
Gitmek; ac\u0131yla, an\u0131yla, sanc\u0131yla, oyunla, \u015fakayla, r\u00fcyayla, hayalle kendimize \u0131smarlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z arma\u011fan. \u00d6ncesi bug\u00fcn\u00fc ve sonras\u0131yla tozlu dumanl\u0131 harman.<\/p>\n
Gitmek; bacalar\u0131n t\u00fcte t\u00fcte, i\u00e7in \u00fcrpere \u00fcrpere, da\u011fa ta\u015fa, kuma dalgaya, buluta ya\u011fmura s\u00f6yleye s\u00f6yleye, dinlene dinlene, inana inana…<\/p>\n
Hemen silinse de denize yaz\u0131nca, g\u00fcl unutursa da f\u0131s\u0131lday\u0131nca, z\u0131rdeli bir r\u00fczgar al\u0131p savursa da hayk\u0131rmal\u0131 alay\u0131na, gitmeyi.<\/p>\n
Gitmek; sabah olmadan revan olmak yola, yolda g\u00fcne\u015fi de katmak yan\u0131na.<\/p>\n
G\u00fcn kirlenmemi\u015fken, g\u00fcl’ler uyanmam\u0131\u015fken. Kirlileri at\u0131p sepete d\u00fc\u015fmeli yollara. Geceden kalan \u0131rz\u0131na ge\u00e7ilen soka\u011f\u0131 teselli ede ede, g\u00f6zlerini sile sile.<\/p>\n
Masalara kapanm\u0131\u015f sandalyeler, uyku mahmuru kediler anlamadan daha…<\/p>\n
…<\/p>\n
Gitmek; g\u00f6n\u00fcl ferahl\u0131\u011f\u0131, hoyrat rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131. Gitmek; d\u00fcn’\u00fcn miad\u0131, hayat milad\u0131. En uzun g\u00fcn: Gitti\u011fin g\u00fcn!..<\/p>\n
Gitmek; ge\u00e7 kal\u0131nm\u0131\u015f acemilik, \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n tela\u015f. Birikmi\u015flerin yola sa\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131, ayaklar\u0131n yalpalay\u0131\u015f\u0131.<\/p>\n
Gitmek; y\u00fcre\u011fini havaland\u0131rmak, g\u00fcne\u015fi yakalamak.<\/p>\n
Yas ate\u015fleriyle yanmak, da\u011f’\u0131n susu\u015funa \u015fa\u015fmak. Boynunda as\u0131l\u0131 yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 itelemek. Adas\u0131z denizlerde d\u00fcmeni kendine k\u0131rmak.<\/p>\n
Gitmek; kanatana da, ku\u015fatana da el sallamak g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f \u00e7an’lar\u0131n e\u015fli\u011finde.<\/p>\n
En heybetli isyan, Solgun ruhlar\u0131 g\u00f6mmek topra\u011fa, do\u011faya O’nun senfonisine b\u0131rakmak kendini…<\/p>\n
…<\/p>\n
Gitmek; yan\u0131k kalp kokusu. Nehirlere nispet, da\u011flara inat yok saymalar\u0131n utanc\u0131, sabr\u0131ndaki dolu sanc\u0131…<\/p>\n
\u00c7\u0131plakla\u015fmak gitmek…<\/p>\n
H\u00fcz\u00fcn taarruzlar\u0131na ra\u011fmen g\u00f6nl\u00fcn azad\u0131.<\/p>\n
Gitmek; en kalbi firar…<\/p>\n
…<\/p>\n
beyhan duran<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Haydi d\u00fcn, kaz\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn tortular\u0131n\u0131 ar\u0131n, toplan\u00a0 gidiyorsun.\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":6308,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[462,14],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-10190","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-beyhan-duran","category-yazilar"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10190","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=10190"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10190\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10192,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10190\/revisions\/10192"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/6308"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=10190"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=10190"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=10190"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}