{"id":27282,"date":"2021-09-13T11:00:06","date_gmt":"2021-09-13T08:00:06","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/sozbizde.com\/?p=27282"},"modified":"2021-09-13T11:09:00","modified_gmt":"2021-09-13T08:09:00","slug":"27282","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/2021\/09\/13\/27282\/","title":{"rendered":"OTOR\u0130TE VAR\u2026 OTOR\u0130TE VAR."},"content":{"rendered":"

Engin \u015eirin<\/strong><\/p>\n

Fen Fak\u00fcltesi A Blok. Zemin kattaki s\u0131n\u0131flardan biri. Kap\u0131s\u0131 kapal\u0131. \u0130\u00e7erde ders var. Ama felsefe dersi. Felsefeye Giri\u015f dersin ad\u0131. Hoca Ahmet Arslan. \u00d6\u011frenciler bizler (\u00e7o\u011fumuz k\u0131l\u0131\u00e7 art\u0131\u011f\u0131, o g\u00fcn itibariyle s\u0131ran\u0131n kendimize gelmesini bekliyoruz). Felsefe \u00f6\u011frencilerinin di\u015fleri aras\u0131nda pipo, bizlerin dudaklar\u0131nda. S\u0131n\u0131f dumanl\u0131. Y\u0131l 1980 Eyl\u00fcl\u2019den sonra.<\/p>\n

Konu: Otorite.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Hoca (ki ger\u00e7ekten \u00e7ok de\u011ferli bir Hocam\u0131zd\u0131r.) k\u00fcrs\u00fcde co\u015fkun bir \u015fekilde onlat\u0131yor konuyu.<\/p>\n

Otorite ne demektir\u2026<\/p>\n

Atfedilen otorite\u2026 Hak edilen otorite\u2026<\/p>\n

Birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn \u00f6nce yine bu binan\u0131n giri\u015finde, bir \u00f6\u011frenciyi elindeki kitap nedeniyle g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Kendisinden hala bir haber al\u0131nam\u0131yordu. Dostoyovski\u2019nin kitab\u0131n\u0131n yasak olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bizim zavall\u0131 ere kimse anlatamam\u0131\u015f. \u0130sim Rus\u00e7a ya \u2026. Emir demiri kesmi\u015f yani\u2026<\/p>\n

Benim tedirginli\u011fim s\u0131n\u0131f\u0131n tedirginli\u011finin toplam\u0131 kadar ama renk vermemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum. Tabii nas\u0131l olacaksa. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc zaten \u00f6zellikle o y\u0131llarda g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm rengarenk. Her neyse. \u00dczerimdeki deri montumun gizli cepleri \u201cku\u015flar\u201dla dolu.<\/p>\n

\u00d6\u011fle yeme\u011fi kuyru\u011funda ku\u015flar\u0131 u\u00e7uraca\u011f\u0131m. M\u00fchendislik Yemekhanesi belki de \u00fcniversite hayat\u0131m\u0131n sonu. \u00d6yle ya kuyrukta n\u00f6bet tutan askerlerden biri ku\u015flara de\u011fil de atana yani bana bakacak olursa yand\u0131 gitti keten helva. O nedenle hataya, pani\u011fe yer yok. Renkten kurtar\u0131yoruz zaten y\u00fcz\u00fcm k\u0131zarsa da belli olmuyor. Zaten hep k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bazen derse dal\u0131yorum. Bazen de yemekhane d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerine. Ders i\u00e7inde med-cezir manzaralar\u0131 yani.<\/p>\n

Bizlerin tedirgin ve s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 halini de\u011fi\u015ftirmeye, dikkatimizi konuya \u00e7ekmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor. Bu ama\u00e7la co\u015ftuk\u00e7a anlat\u0131yor, anlatt\u0131k\u00e7a co\u015fuyor.<\/p>\n

Hoca \u201cotorite\u201d diyor. Bizler \u201cdemokrasi\u201d.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bizi tahrik edebilmek i\u00e7in her yolu deniyor. Yine de yar\u0131m yamalak bilgilerimizle laf yar\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yoruz. Bu durum Hoca i\u00e7in bulunmaz f\u0131rsat. Yakalad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenciyle kedi fare oyununa ba\u015fl\u0131yor. Oyuna kat\u0131lan \u00f6\u011frenci de yeni fare oluyor.<\/p>\n

\u201cBak\u0131n \u015fimdi\u2026\u201d, \u201cBu s\u0131n\u0131fta otorite kim?\u201d, \u201cBenim.\u201d Diyor. \u201cBen ne istersem o olur\u201d diyor. \u201c\u0130stedi\u011fim konuyu anlat\u0131r\u0131m, istedi\u011fimi derse al\u0131r\u0131m, istedi\u011fimi dersten atar\u0131m\u201d\u2026 HAKLI.<\/p>\n

\u201cOlur mu? Kurallar var.\u201d, \u201c\u00dcniversite halk\u0131nd\u0131r.\u201d, \u201cBizim de s\u00f6z hakk\u0131m\u0131z var.\u201d Gibi itirazlar art arda s\u0131ralan\u0131yor. B\u0130ZLER DE HAKLIYIZ\u2026<\/p>\n

AMA DEVEDEN B\u00dcY\u00dcK F\u0130L VAR.<\/p>\n

Tak, tak, tak\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u201cGir\u201d demeyi beklemeden a\u00e7\u0131lan kap\u0131… Mahcup bir y\u00fcz\u2026. Sahte bir tebess\u00fcmle \u201cSizi \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131yorlar\u201d \u2026<\/p>\n

Hoca kap\u0131 d\u0131\u015f\u0131na gitti. Bir iki dakika sonra iki ki\u015fi olarak d\u00f6nd\u00fcler geriye. Tabii biri subay.<\/p>\n

Hoca Urfal\u0131 ve biraz esmer. Ama Hoca\u2019da ne bet kalm\u0131\u015f ne beniz. Hoca bembeyaz. \u201cSize bir \u015fey s\u00f6yleyecekler-mi\u015f\u201d diye bir \u015feyler s\u00f6yledi mi? Geveledi mi? Anlayamad\u0131k.<\/p>\n

(Bu durumu herkes Hoca\u2019n\u0131n korkmas\u0131na ba\u011flad\u0131. Yine ger\u00e7ek d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131 \u0131skalay\u0131p en yak\u0131n\u0131m\u0131zdakine kur\u015fun s\u0131kmaya haz\u0131rd\u0131k. Oysa ki Hoca\u2019n\u0131n ne kadar \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc y\u0131llar sonra anlayabilmi\u015ftim. Biraz psikoloji e\u011fitiminden sonra asl\u0131nda kendi korkular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 Hoca\u2019ya y\u00f6nlendirdi\u011fimizi anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ya\u2026) <\/em><\/p>\n

\u015eapkan\u0131n alt\u0131da ve ye\u015fil elbisenin i\u00e7indeki cisim, otoriter bir sesle \u201c\u015eimdi hepiniz efendi gibi sessizce oturun. \u015eebekelerinizi masalar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne koyun. \u0130\u00e7inizde aranan bir ter\u00f6rist var m\u0131? Arkada\u015flar bakacaklar.\u201d Dedi.<\/p>\n

(Ben de dahil olmak \u00fczere s\u0131n\u0131f\u0131n en az yar\u0131s\u0131 \u201ceyvah ben\u201d demi\u015ftir.)<\/em><\/p>\n

Rap, rap, rap\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n

Sanki bir tiyatro oyununun g\u00f6be\u011findeyiz. S\u0131n\u0131f\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131 sahne giri\u015fmi\u015f gibi.<\/p>\n

Kap\u0131dan ko\u015far uygun ad\u0131m, yan yana iki s\u0131ra asker giri\u015f yapt\u0131. Ellerinde \u00e7apraz tutu\u015f t\u00fcfekleriyle\u2026 Bir s\u0131ra pencere taraf\u0131nda, di\u011fer s\u0131ra duvar taraf\u0131nda olmak \u00fczere sard\u0131lar bizi. G\u00f6zlerindeki bo\u015f bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131yla.<\/p>\n

\u0130ki kara delik\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n

Ve ard\u0131ndan iki kara delik girdi i\u00e7eriye. Hani zaman\u0131n, mekan\u0131n olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131\u2026 Hani her \u015feyi yutan, yok eden. \u0130\u015fte onlardan iki tane girdi i\u00e7eri. Masadaki \u015febekeyi ellerine al\u0131p bir \u015febekeye, bir y\u00fcze; bir \u015febekeye, bir g\u00f6ze; bir \u015febekeye, bir \u00e7eneye\u2026\u2026<\/p>\n

S\u0131ras\u0131n\u0131 atlatan bir oh \u00e7ekiyor \u00f6nce, sonra arkada\u015flar\u0131 i\u00e7in kayg\u0131lanmaya ba\u015fl\u0131yor. Al\u0131c\u0131 ku\u015flar ise av pe\u015finde devam. K\u00e2bus bitmek bilmiyor.<\/p>\n

Hoca belli ki bu durumdan \u00e7ok k\u00f6t\u00fc oldu. \u201cBi sigara versene\u201d dedi \u00f6nde oturan \u00f6\u011frencilerden birine. Ald\u0131 sigaray\u0131. Yakt\u0131. Ye\u015filli cisim \u201cDerste\u2026 sigara\u2026 olmaz olmaz ama\u201d diye bir y\u0131lan gibi t\u0131slad\u0131. Hocam\u0131z \u201cSosyal Bilimler\u2026 rahat ortam…\u201d diye gevelerken; Hocam\u0131z\u0131n tuvalet ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131ndaki s\u00fcr\u00fcnt\u00fc bile olamayacak ye\u015fillik, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131l\u0131k bir \u015fekilde a\u015fa\u011f\u0131layan tav\u0131rlar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcr\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n

T\u00fcm yabanc\u0131 cisimler s\u0131n\u0131ftan \u00e7ekip gidince s\u0131n\u0131f mevcudumuz bir ki\u015fi azalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ah gen\u00e7lik, ah s\u0131ra bilmezlik<\/strong><\/p>\n

Ard\u0131ndan klasik durum ba\u015flad\u0131: Hocaya sald\u0131r\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

\u201cHani\u201d diyorduk. \u201cHani otorite sendin?\u201d, \u201cNeden izin verdin?\u201d s\u0131ralay\u0131p duruyorduk. Hocam\u0131z\u0131n i\u00e7inde asla d\u0131\u015fa vuramayaca\u011f\u0131 f\u0131rt\u0131nalar\u0131 g\u00f6remiyor, germek istemiyorduk. \u00dcz\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fcn boyutunu anlamaya birikimimiz yetmiyordu.<\/p>\n

Ku\u015flar m\u0131? U\u00e7tu elbette\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n

O g\u00fcn \u00f6\u011fleden sonra herkes M\u00fchendislik yemekhanesindeki u\u00e7u\u015fan ku\u015flar\u0131 konu\u015fuyordu. Bilmeden beni bana anlatan \u00e7oktu. Nas\u0131l da yapm\u0131\u015f\u0131m? Nas\u0131l da yok olmu\u015fum? Ben neymi\u015fim be abi.<\/p>\n

Oysa nas\u0131l da korkmu\u015ftum o ku\u015flar\u0131 u\u00e7ururken. Kolay m\u0131? Yakalanmak demek i\u015fkence demek. Dizlerim \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fclecek gibi oluyordu ama ba\u015farmal\u0131yd\u0131m\u2026 Ba\u015farmal\u0131yd\u0131k\u2026<\/p>\n

T\u0131pk\u0131 cezaevlerindeki,<\/p>\n

T\u0131pk\u0131 i\u015fkencedeki arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z gibi\u2026<\/p>\n

Korkular\u0131m\u0131z g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fcz olmal\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ku\u015flar her yerlerde u\u00e7mal\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n

U\u00e7tu da\u2026.<\/p>\n

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