{"id":27686,"date":"2021-09-20T23:52:37","date_gmt":"2021-09-20T20:52:37","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/sozbizde.com\/?p=27686"},"modified":"2021-09-20T23:53:25","modified_gmt":"2021-09-20T20:53:25","slug":"27686","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/2021\/09\/20\/27686\/","title":{"rendered":"Ruhi Su, Namlular, K\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 Karanfiller"},"content":{"rendered":"

Engin \u015eirin<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bir \u015feyler yapabilmeliydik. Hay\u0131r, hay\u0131r. Bir \u015feyler yapmal\u0131yd\u0131k\u2026 Ama ne? Ama nas\u0131l?<\/p>\n

Elime tutu\u015fturulan ve \u201cSak\u0131n bu mum m\u00fch\u00fcrleri bozma, yanars\u0131n\u201d denilen ansiklopedi kal\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u201csak\u0131nca dosyam\u201d\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda o kadar gerilmi\u015ftim ki\u2026 \u0130lk g\u00fcn sak\u0131ncal\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 gizlemedi\u011fim i\u00e7in dalga ge\u00e7meye kalkan subaya \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Bir patlamayd\u0131 sanki. \u00d6ylesine\u2026 Cahilce\u2026 \u0130stemsizce\u2026 \u201cKaybettik. Ne olmu\u015f yani. Kazansayd\u0131k sen benim yerimde olurdun.\u201d \u201cAha delinin biri gelmi\u015f\u201d diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr. \u201c\u00dcst\u00fcne gitmeyeyim zavall\u0131n\u0131n.\u201d<\/p>\n

Art\u0131k benim i\u00e7in geri vites yoktu. E\u011fer duraklarsam paspas olaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum (ve i\u015fte b\u00fcy\u00fck ihtimalle bundan \u00f6lesiye korkuyordum). Hi\u00e7bir ceza g\u00f6rm\u00fcyordum. Tam tersine, beceriklili\u011fim sayesinde de taktir g\u00f6r\u00fcyordum. Bu durum beni \u015f\u0131martt\u0131k\u00e7a \u015f\u0131mart\u0131yordu. Ayr\u0131ca di\u011fer sak\u0131ncal\u0131 arkada\u015flar \u00fczerinde de bula\u015f\u0131 bir etki yarat\u0131yordu. Art\u0131k bizim tak\u0131m\u0131n ad\u0131 kural tan\u0131mayanlar anlam\u0131nda \u201cmehter tak\u0131m\u0131\u201dyd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Diyebilirim ki hayat\u0131m\u0131n hi\u00e7bir d\u00f6neminde b\u00f6ylesi kahramanl\u0131klar ya\u015famad\u0131m. Ama bu da tamamen korkular\u0131ma dayan\u0131yordu. \u201c\u00d6lm\u00fc\u015f e\u015fek kurttan korkmaz\u201d misali.<\/p>\n

Sonu\u00e7ta enfeksiyon kayna\u011f\u0131 olan beni izole edebilmek i\u00e7in geri hizmette ressam olarak kullanmaya ba\u015flad\u0131lar ama nafile\u2026<\/p>\n

Cumartesi mi? Yoksa Pazar m\u0131yd\u0131? Bilemiyorum. Ama hafta sonu oldu\u011fu kesindiBir arkada\u015f yan\u0131m\u0131za allak bulak bir suratla geldi. \u201cRuhi Su\u201d \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f\u201d dedi. \u00a0(Hesaplad\u0131m olay cumartesi g\u00fcn\u00fc. Ruhi Su\u2019nun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc cuma g\u00fcn\u00fc.)<\/p>\n

Kafama sanki balyozla vuruldu. Hay\u0131r? Hepimizin kafas\u0131na balyozlarla vurulmu\u015f gibi. Sanki kafa par\u00e7alar\u0131; t\u00fcm masalar\u0131n \u00fczerlerine, sandalyelere, yerler, duvarlara, tavanlara sa\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. G\u00f6zlerin, kulaklar\u0131n di\u015flerin, beyin par\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131n, g\u0131rtlaklar\u0131n aras\u0131nda nefes almaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorduk\u2026<\/p>\n

K\u0131sa s\u00fcrede toparland\u0131k. G\u00f6zler, kulaklar, di\u015fler, beyin par\u00e7alar\u0131 ve g\u0131rtlaklar yerlerine ge\u00e7ti. An\u0131lar, konserleri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceleri payla\u015f\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ama bize yetmiyordu. \u201c\u00d6lm\u00fc\u015f\u201d de\u011fil \u201c\u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f\u201d olmas\u0131n\u0131 biliyor ve bu durumu hazmedemiyorduk.<\/p>\n

Evet, evet; Bir \u015feyler yapabilmeliydik. Hay\u0131r, hay\u0131r. Bir \u015feyler yapmal\u0131yd\u0131k. Ama ne? Ama nas\u0131l?<\/p>\n

Plans\u0131z programs\u0131z bir \u015fekilde paralar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 birle\u015ftirdik. Ne yapacakt\u0131k? \u201cK\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 karanfil alal\u0131m\u201d dedi biri. \u201cAl\u0131p da ne yapaca\u011f\u0131z?\u201d \u201c\u00d6nce alal\u0131m da\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

Epey bir para toplanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Tel \u00f6rg\u00fc kenar\u0131nda bekleyen taksilerden birinin yan\u0131na bir arkada\u015fla birlikte gittik. Bu taksiler \u00e7o\u011funlukla yolcu de\u011fil ila\u00e7 gibi, yiyecek gibi, sigara gibi ihtiya\u00e7 malzemesi ta\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. B\u00fct\u00fcn paray\u0131 tel \u00f6rg\u00fclerin aras\u0131ndan uzatt\u0131m. \u201cAbi\u2026 B\u00fct\u00fcn bu parayla k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 karanfil al\u0131ver\u201d dedim.\u00a0 \u201cCenazemiz var ne olur bir yamuk olmas\u0131n\u2026\u201d \u201cAy\u0131p ediyorsun. Bizde yamuk olmaz\u201d dedi, bozuldu\u011funu belli ederek.<\/p>\n

Bir saat kadar sonra d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Sanki araban\u0131n i\u00e7ine Isparta\u2019n\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 karanfillerini doldurmu\u015ftu. Paran\u0131n da kalan\u0131n\u0131 geri vermek istedi almad\u0131k. \u201cHelal olun \u201cdedik.<\/p>\n

T\u00fcm arkada\u015flar\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131k karanfiller \u00f6be\u011finin yan\u0131na. \u015eimdi ne yapacakt\u0131k? K\u0131sa bir tart\u0131\u015fmadan sonra karar\u0131m\u0131z \u015fekillendi. \u00a0N\u00f6bete gidilen yollar\u0131 tutacakt\u0131k. Her n\u00f6bet\u00e7inin t\u00fcfe\u011finin namlusuna bir karanfil yerle\u015ftirecektik. Nas\u0131lsa hafta sonu. Ortal\u0131kta subay astsubay yok. \u00c7avu\u015flar bizden korkuyor. \u0130\u015flem tamam.<\/p>\n

Hakikaten ayak\u00fcst\u00fc olu\u015fturulan plan m\u00fckemmel bir \u015fekilde i\u015fledi. \u201cBu nedir diye soranlara (ve hatta sormayanlara da) \u201cCenazemiz var\u2026 Sak\u0131n \u00e7\u0131karmay\u0131n haaaa) diyerek; yar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131klama, yar\u0131 tembih amac\u0131na ula\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ruhi Baba g\u00f6r\u00fcr diyorduk.<\/p>\n

Ama Ak\u015fam i\u00e7tima alan\u0131nda umulmad\u0131k bir \u015fey oldu. Erlerin b\u00fcy\u00fck bir \u00e7o\u011funlu\u011fu karanfilleri namlular\u0131nda i\u00e7timaya kat\u0131ld\u0131. \u0130\u00e7tima alan\u0131 g\u00f6z hizas\u0131nda k\u0131pk\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n

Unuttular m\u0131? Bilinmez\u2026<\/p>\n

\u00d6nemsemediler mi? Belki\u2026<\/p>\n

Bizlere sayg\u0131 duyduklar\u0131 i\u00e7in olabilir mi? Olabilir\u2026<\/p>\n

Dalga m\u0131 ge\u00e7iyorlard\u0131? M\u00fcmk\u00fcn\u2026<\/p>\n

Ama karanfillerin Ruhi Su\u2019yla ili\u015fkisini bilmedikleri kesin.<\/p>\n

Olsun biz biliyorduk ya. Biz i\u00e7tima alan\u0131nda o k\u0131z\u0131ll\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyorduk ya.<\/p>\n

Ruhi Baba da bizim g\u00f6zlerimizden g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

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Engin \u015eirin Bir \u015feyler yapabilmeliydik. Hay\u0131r, hay\u0131r. Bir \u015feyler yapmal\u0131yd\u0131k\u2026 Ama ne? Ama nas\u0131l? Elime tutu\u015fturulan ve \u201cSak\u0131n bu mum m\u00fch\u00fcrleri bozma, yanars\u0131n\u201d denilen<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":16032,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[21,1,14],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-27686","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-engin-sirin","category-genel","category-yazilar"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/27686","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=27686"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/27686\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":27689,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/27686\/revisions\/27689"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/16032"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=27686"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=27686"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=27686"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}