bi bakm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n g\u00fcn\u00fcn birinde i\u00e7imin taaa en puslu ikliminde<\/p>\n
arka koltukta uyuyakalan bir \u00e7ocukmu\u015fum \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f\u0131m ne kadar da\u011f varsa en y\u00fckse\u011fine<\/p>\n
minicik kalm\u0131\u015f her\u015fey kalakalm\u0131\u015f\u0131m ser\u00e7e y\u00fcre\u011fimle<\/p>\n
o kahrolas\u0131 ve kaybolas\u0131 g\u00fcnlerde bir dolu karabasan birikmi\u015f ya i\u00e7inde<\/p>\n
kara dikenler saplanm\u0131\u015f ya kalbinin en pamuk yerine…<\/p>\n
bi bakm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n karanl\u0131k diz \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcvermi\u015f gecenin \u00f6n\u00fcnde affet demi\u015f affet bir daha kalmam bu kadar uzun diye<\/p>\n
…<\/p>\n
bi bakm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n tesbih taneleri gibi da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n her bir par\u00e7an her bir yerde<\/p>\n
topla toplayabilirsen ekle ekleyebilirsen\u0131<\/p>\n
bi bakm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n kirpiklerinden koca bir balya d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f g\u00f6zlerinin \u00fczerine<\/p>\n
hangi ”a\u015fk” \u0131n kahraman\u0131yd\u0131n unutuvermi\u015fsin<\/p>\n
kurulu sofralarda \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131n dibini boylam\u0131\u015fs\u0131n \u0131sl\u0131k \u00e7al\u0131yormu\u015fsun g\u00f6lgesinde bir kay\u0131s\u0131 a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n<\/p>\n
nakaratlara inat geli\u015fig\u00fczel sat\u0131r\u0131 oluvermi\u015fsin hayat\u0131n…<\/p>\n
…<\/p>\n
bi bakm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n \u00e7ocukken kanayan dizim gibi inceden a\u011fl\u0131yormu\u015f g\u00f6zlerim<\/p>\n
can yak\u0131yordu ya da\u011f dikenleri gibi batan ve ac\u0131tan duru\u015fun<\/p>\n
oysa tam da sapa\u011f\u0131nda yakalay\u0131vermi\u015ftim seni<\/p>\n
ve san\u0131yordum ki;<\/p>\n
d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn g\u00fcn dal\u0131mdan ge\u00e7ecektim t\u00fcm sevdalardan\u0131<\/p>\n
oysa bir tutam fesle\u011fen bir avu\u00e7 yasemen ge\u00e7iriveriyormu\u015f ki her\u015feyi<\/p>\n
bi bakm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n en efkar vaktinde ruhunun bir ses \u00e7\u0131nlam\u0131\u015f\u00a0 kula\u011f\u0131nda<\/p>\n
” sa\u00e7\u0131na kar\u0131\u015fan y\u0131ld\u0131z tozlar\u0131n\u0131n sihrine kap\u0131lma a can\u0131m… bi hafif yele bakar aldand\u0131\u011f\u0131n”<\/p>\n
bi bakm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n o ses kur\u015fun olup delivermi\u015f kale duvarlar\u0131n\u0131<\/p>\n
hem ”can\u0131m sende” deyip de gidivermezmi\u015f ki sevenler<\/p>\n
bi bakm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n tutmu\u015fum d\u00f6rt bir ucundan topluyorum kendimi<\/p>\n
art\u0131k s\u00f6z: demem bir daha\u00a0 ”korkar\u0131m ikbalima”<\/p>\n
\u015fakayd\u0131 ki yanmad\u0131m gitti\u011fine !..<\/p>\n
…<\/p>\n
bi bakm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n atm\u0131\u015f\u0131m kendimi buz gibi sulara ak\u0131p gitmi\u015f sana ait ne varsa<\/p>\n
ilk bak\u0131\u015f\u0131n sapl\u0131yd\u0131 ya kirpi\u011fimin alt\u0131nda<\/p>\n
k\u0131rp\u0131nca bir iki o da gitmi\u015f vallaha…<\/p>\n
e hadi bir y\u00fcrekten ta\u015f\u0131nma vakti<\/p>\n
art\u0131k de\u011fmesin dal’\u0131n yapra\u011f\u0131ma sen tas’\u0131 topla ben tara\u011f\u0131<\/p>\n
sen de; kes be g\u00f6nl\u00fcm kes a\u011flamay\u0131.<\/p>\n
…<\/p>\n
beyhan duran \/ 2014<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
bi bakm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n g\u00fcn\u00fcn birinde i\u00e7imin taaa en puslu ikliminde arka koltukta uyuyakalan bir \u00e7ocukmu\u015fum \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f\u0131m ne kadar da\u011f varsa en y\u00fckse\u011fine minicik kalm\u0131\u015f her\u015fey<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":2667,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[462,14],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3693","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-beyhan-duran","category-yazilar"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3693","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3693"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3693\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3694,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3693\/revisions\/3694"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2667"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3693"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3693"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3693"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}