{"id":45491,"date":"2022-08-07T23:43:17","date_gmt":"2022-08-07T20:43:17","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/sozbizde.com\/?p=45491"},"modified":"2022-08-07T23:46:21","modified_gmt":"2022-08-07T20:46:21","slug":"45491","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/2022\/08\/07\/45491\/","title":{"rendered":"Mazlum Vesek\u2019ten Semra: \u201c\u00d6zlem Arts\u0131n Kelimeler Eskimesin Diye\u201d"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Merhaba Semra;\u00a0 bu sevdan\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc okudum. Seninle tan\u0131\u015famad\u0131k hi\u00e7. Elimde tuttu\u011fum bu pikaresk roman\u0131n ba\u015fki\u015fisi Adana’n\u0131n Panait Istratisi Mazlum. T\u0131pk\u0131 Pikaro gibi\u00a0 g\u00fcc\u00fc elinde bulunduran \u201c\u00fcsttekilerin\u201d d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce ve davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zleyip kavrayarak onlar\u0131 yenmek i\u00e7in bu tecr\u00fcbelerini ve zekas\u0131n\u0131 kullanm\u0131\u015f. Balkanlar\u0131n Maksim Gorki’si olarak an\u0131l\u0131r Panait Istrati. T\u00fcm eserlerini anadili olan Rumence de\u011fil, Frans\u0131zca olarak yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. Panait Istrati romanlar\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7o\u011funda yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yolculuklar\u0131 anlat\u0131r. Fakat gezdi\u011fi \u00fclkeler de\u011fil, tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 insanlar \u00f6n plandad\u0131r. Istrati’nin eserlerinde ger\u00e7ek bir insan sevgisi hissedilir. Bu kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ks\u0131z ve ko\u015fulsuz sevginin hik\u00e2yesindeki kahramanlar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na getirdi\u011fi belalar kadar, onlara yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 katk\u0131 da nesnel bir bi\u00e7imde anlat\u0131l\u0131r. Mazlum’un da bir yazar olarak tutumunu ve ger\u00e7ek ya\u015fam\u0131ndaki kahramanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bu benzerlikten geliyor belki.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Elbette bu romana yazmak sana seslenmekle ba\u015fl\u0131yor. Ba\u015fka bir g\u00f6zden Mazlum’u anlatmaya. Onun g\u00f6z\u00fcnden kendime, o g\u00fcnlere bakmaya. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o ne kadar ger\u00e7ek ad\u0131mlarla, umutla dola\u015f\u0131yorsa bu koruluklarda ben bir o kadar etraf\u0131mda olup bitenlerden bihaberim. Bir nesnenin, bir \u00e2n\u0131n, objelerin b\u00fct\u00fcn ayr\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131 bende a\u00e7\u0131k se\u00e7ik durur da; ki\u015filer, diyaloglar ve onlar\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131 silik kal\u0131r. Tuhaf ki ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m anda da siliktir. Biz Mazlum’la Veysel Abisinin yan\u0131na ders \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak i\u00e7in geldi\u011fi y\u0131l tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. \u00d6\u011frencilik y\u0131llar\u0131. Mazlum’un abileri i\u00e7in s\u00f6yledi\u011fi; duygudan \u00e7ok ger\u00e7e\u011fi, yol g\u00f6stericilikten \u00e7ok nutuk \u00e7ekmeyi seven nitelemesi hepimiz i\u00e7in ge\u00e7erliydi. O y\u0131llar nutuk \u00e7ekenler y\u0131llar\u0131yd\u0131. Birini kalbine basmak zordu \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc, Semra. Bir saat sonra kalbine bast\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kaybetme, y\u0131llarca g\u00f6rememe, o sar\u0131l\u0131\u015fta tak\u0131l\u0131 kalma riskinin oldu\u011fu y\u0131llar. Kalbimizin sesini duymamak i\u00e7in y\u00fcre\u011fimize indirilen yumruklar\u0131n, ak\u0131l ak\u0131l diye \u00e7a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 y\u0131llar. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc s\u00f6ze d\u00f6k\u00fclemeyeni, duyum e\u015fimizi ge\u00e7emeyenleri…S\u00f6zc\u00fcklerin ve rasyonalizmin zaferini g\u00f6lgeleyen her \u015fey gericili\u011fin boh\u00e7as\u0131na at\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn taraflar i\u00e7in.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Onun haf\u0131zas\u0131n\u0131, her \u015feyi akl\u0131nda tutabilen yan\u0131n\u0131 \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131kla g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm. Bir s\u00f6z\u00fc unutmak, bir y\u00fcz\u00fc unutmaktan uzun s\u00fcrer; bunu biliyordu Mazlum. Onun bildi\u011fine biz ge\u00e7 vak\u0131f olduk. Duymazdan geldi\u011fimiz kendimiz ve ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6zleri beynimizin duvar\u0131nda \u00e7ivilendi durdu.\u00a0 \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc unutabilmek cennetin \u00f6n ko\u015fuludur. Mazlum, en ba\u015f\u0131ndan her \u015feyi hat\u0131rlamaya kurulu beyniyle, bir mah\u015fer yeri gibiydi. Herkesin, canl\u0131 cans\u0131z her \u015feyin dirildi\u011fi bu an ile ya\u015f\u0131yor. Bunlar\u0131 mant\u0131k \u00e7er\u00e7evesinde oturtuyor, anl\u0131yor, reddediyor ya da kabul ediyor. S\u00f6zc\u00fckler ve hat\u0131rlay\u0131\u015flar onun k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fckle d\u00f6v\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcn arac\u0131 ya da sevgiyle bulu\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131n yolda\u015f\u0131. Ve bug\u00fcn g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum ki ge\u00e7mi\u015f geride kals\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne bakabilsin i\u00e7in her ayr\u0131nt\u0131yla helalle\u015fiyor.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Her gece kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131 paray\u0131 annesinin g\u00f6rece\u011fi yere b\u0131rakan Mazlum’un hayatla aram\u0131zdaki o sessiz anla\u015fmaya istinaden s\u00f6ylenen yalanlar\u0131, sese d\u00f6kmeyenler ne \u00e7oktu. Cebimizdeki son kuru\u015flar\u0131 b\u0131rakarak \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z evler, ki\u015filer ne \u00e7ok. Belki de bu y\u00fczden sesi \u00e7ok g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fcyd\u00fc Mazlum’un. Sesi etraf\u0131m\u0131zda d\u00f6ne d\u00f6ne bir bedene kavu\u015facak kadar do\u011frusundan emin. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bedeninin \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u015flerde edindi\u011finin altyaz\u0131s\u0131 gibi sesi. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc dilini \u015fikayete de\u011fil umuda kurmu\u015ftur daha en ba\u015f\u0131ndan.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ev o d\u00f6nemlerin uzant\u0131s\u0131, bizim i\u00e7in akmay\u0131 unutan bir karanl\u0131k gibi durur i\u00e7imizde. Ev kabad\u0131r buralarda, kabad\u0131r. Bu y\u00fczden ilk borcumuzdur bizim. \u00d6demekle bitmeyen, kavga etmekle, g\u00f6rmezden gelmekle ka\u00e7makla bitmeyenimizdir ev. Pe\u015fimizi b\u0131rakmayan bir \u015fiirdir. Baba evi doldurand\u0131r. Ordu gibidir. Yoklu\u011fu da kalabal\u0131kt\u0131r baban\u0131n. G\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyen hayalet ordular\u0131 pe\u015fini b\u0131rakmaz hi\u00e7. Hem yenmek, hem kendini kabul ettirmek zorundas\u0131nd\u0131r ona. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck omuzlar\u0131m\u0131za kendi ordular\u0131n\u0131 sal\u0131p bizi erkenden b\u00fcy\u00fcmek zorunda b\u0131rakan, \u015f\u0131marmam\u0131za, \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumuzu gen\u00e7li\u011fimizi ya\u015famam\u0131za engel olan onlar\u0131n var g\u00f6r\u00fcnen yoklu\u011fu… Bizi erken b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fc. Ne g\u00fczel demi\u015f Mazlum ve kitab\u0131n \u00f6zeti bence bu c\u00fcmle “belki sen olsan (Semra) b\u00f6yle \u00e7abuk b\u00fcy\u00fcmezdim.”<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Belki sen onun elinden tutsan, bu erken b\u00fcy\u00fcmeye dur diyecek g\u00fcc\u00fc bulabilecekti. Bulabilecektik. A\u015fk kendini \u015f\u0131martmakt\u0131r. Roman\u0131 okurken g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum ki evin b\u00fct\u00fcn kabal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yumu\u015fatmak i\u00e7in ad\u0131n \u00f6yle g\u00fczel duruyor bu hayat yoku\u015funda Semra. Seninle birlikte bizi okumaya vakti ve konforu olmayan ev de okusun diye, hayata kendini okutmak i\u00e7in yaz\u0131yla yol a\u00e7maya \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nmam\u0131z bu y\u00fczden. Yaz\u0131yla kendimize bir \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck alan\u0131 a\u00e7maya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmam\u0131z.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Hi\u00e7 nazlanmadan ihtiyac\u0131 olan herkesle soka\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kan boya sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibidir Mazlum da. \u0130nsan ya\u015fam\u0131ndaki temel nesnelere benziyor zaten eninde sonunda. Kimin ihtiyac\u0131 olsa onun yan\u0131nda. Asl\u0131nda s\u0131rt\u0131ndaki boya sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir kamerad\u0131r. Hayat\u0131 kay\u0131t alt\u0131na al\u0131r. Ellerindeki boyalar g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc ve renk at\u0131klar\u0131 . O ya\u015flar\u0131ndan ka\u00e7arcas\u0131na \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yor Mazlum. \u00d6z\u00fcmseyip netle\u015ftirerek. D\u00f6kt\u00fc\u011f\u00fc al\u0131n terinin k\u0131ymetini \u00f6nce kendisi aln\u0131ndan \u00f6p\u00fcyor b\u00f6ylece. “bir ayakkab\u0131 boyac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n en yak\u0131n dostu sol diziydi”. Beden g\u00fcc\u00fcyle para kazanan\u0131n bedeni. \u0130nsan ge\u00e7mi\u015fini nas\u0131l geride b\u0131rak\u0131r? Okuduklar\u0131n\u0131n yard\u0131m\u0131yla boh\u00e7alayarak m\u0131?<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Bir kenti bir d\u00f6nemi sadele\u015ftirmek i\u00e7indir sanki Mazlum’un yazma bi\u00e7imi, hep ayn\u0131 noktadan ba\u015flamadan yolunu kaybedenlere yolunu g\u00f6stermek. Kader gayrete \u00e2\u015f\u0131kt\u0131r. Semra, Mazlum’un gayretine \u00e2\u015f\u0131kt\u0131r. Bunu ya\u015fama ete kemi\u011fe d\u00f6kmese de. A\u00e7l\u0131k ve a\u015fk mahpusluk g\u00fcnlerinde, zor g\u00fcnlerde kavga etmiyorlar, birbirlerini koruyorlar. A\u015fk insan\u0131n her t\u00fcrl\u00fc a\u00e7l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlaml\u0131 ve katlan\u0131l\u0131r k\u0131l\u0131yor belki. Hep hasta oldu\u011funu dert eden bir insan\u0131n sesini arar dururuz. Duymad\u0131k\u00e7a da y\u0131ld\u0131z oldun, Semra. Sana dair bir anda\u00e7 asl\u0131nda koca, Adana.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u0130nsana inanc\u0131n\u0131 hi\u00e7 yitirmeyen yan\u0131n\u0131 seviyorum Mazlum’un. Hem senin, hem hayat\u0131na girmi\u015f herkesin haf\u0131zas\u0131na att\u0131\u011f\u0131n oltay\u0131 \u00f6p\u00fcp kabul ediyorum.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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\u00a0Hicran ASLAN \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Merhaba Semra;\u00a0 bu sevdan\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc okudum. Seninle tan\u0131\u015famad\u0131k hi\u00e7. Elimde tuttu\u011fum bu pikaresk roman\u0131n ba\u015fki\u015fisi Adana’n\u0131n Panait Istratisi Mazlum. T\u0131pk\u0131 Pikaro<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":45493,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1135,14],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-45491","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-konuk-yazar","category-yazilar"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/45491","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=45491"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/45491\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":45494,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/45491\/revisions\/45494"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/45493"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=45491"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=45491"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arsiv.sozbizde.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=45491"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}