Din don don. Din don don. Din din din din. Din don, don don\u2026.<\/p>\n
Nenni. \u00dcmm\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm. Ninanaynom.<\/p>\n
G\u00f6le bak\u0131r dald\u0131rd\u0131m. Nenni ninanaynom.<\/p>\n
Akl\u0131m\u0131 ba\u015ftan ald\u0131rd\u0131m. \u00a0Ninanaynom.<\/p>\n
\u015eu g\u00fczele bakarken. Nenni nianaynom.<\/p>\n
Cam\u0131zlar\u0131 \u00e7ald\u0131rd\u0131m. Nenni ninanaynom.<\/p>\n
Herkes 9\/8 lik\u00e7i. Nedir 9\/8? Cevap haz\u0131r, roman havas\u0131. Sor bakal\u0131m 9\/4\u2019l\u00fc\u011f\u00fc kimsenin haberi yok. Asl\u0131nda ben de \u00f6nceden bilmiyordum. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131n arkada\u015flar\u0131ndan \u00f6\u011frendim. G\u00fcle\u00e7 y\u00fczl\u00fc G\u00fcltekin\u2019den; Marmaris\u2019li, m\u00fczik b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnde okuyordu. Bilmezdim ama; oturu\u015fum, kalk\u0131\u015f\u0131m, uykum, yemek yap\u0131\u015f\u0131m, \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131r y\u0131kay\u0131\u015f\u0131m, say sayabildi\u011fin kadar 9\/4 l\u00fckt\u00fc. Beni anlaman\u0131z zor biliyorum. \u00c7ocuklu\u011fumu ve gen\u00e7li\u011fimi bu ritimle ya\u015fam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, fark\u0131na varmadan. \u2018\u00d6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn kenti \u0130zmir\u2019e gelince kulaklarda sustu m\u00fczik. Ama ruhumu engelleyemiyordum. \u0130\u00e7imden s\u00f6yledim. Kendim s\u00f6yledim, kendim duydum ama bir an bile b\u0131rakmad\u0131m. B\u0131rakamad\u0131m. Laf aram\u0131zda b\u0131rakmay\u0131 dahi istemedim.<\/p>\n
Torbal\u0131l\u0131y\u0131m ben ben ben\u2026<\/p>\n
Torbal\u0131\u2019ya git\u00e7em \u00e7em \u00e7em\u2026<\/p>\n
Torbal\u0131\u2019n\u0131n havas\u0131,<\/p>\n
Ek\u015fili mayas\u0131 s\u0131 s\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
K\u00f6y\u00fcn en g\u00fczel k\u0131zlar\u0131ndan biriydim. Bir masal d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 and\u0131ran ya\u015fam\u0131n; yoksul ama mutlu k\u0131sm\u0131ndayd\u0131m. S\u00e2d\u0131\u00e7\u0131m, \u00e2retli\u011fim, a\u015furem, ak\u015fam sefam ve portakal\u0131m vard\u0131… G\u00fcld\u00fcrmeyin beni!… Sofra de\u011fil!… Arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n daha \u00f6zel olanlar\u0131. (Birbirimizi ortak sevdi\u011fimiz bir \u015feyle adland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ve birbirimize \u00f6l\u00fcnceye kadar o isimle hitap eti\u011fimiz arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z.)<\/p>\n
\u00d6yle evde oturup nasip bekleyen bir gen\u00e7 k\u0131zl\u0131k ya\u015famad\u0131m. K\u00f6y\u00fcn 10-15 k\u0131z\u0131 gezip-tozup e\u011flenerek b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck. Tamam, zar (kara \u00e7ar\u015faf) i\u00e7indeydik ama o kadar. Evlenip \u0130zmir\u2019e geldi\u011fimde zar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131p, mantoyla tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. \u00d6zg\u00fcrle\u015ftim diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeyin sak\u0131n; tutuculukla da, bask\u0131yla da burada tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Dedelere mum yakanlar\u0131, b\u00fcy\u00fcye inananlar\u0131 burada g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Hepimiz M\u00fcsl\u00fcman\u0131z elhamd\u00fclillah ama burdakiler bir de\u011fi\u015fik. Nerden bileyim? <\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Oysa k\u00f6y\u00fcmde nas\u0131l da mutluydum. Hele bir d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn, bir e\u011flence olsun; ba\u015froldeyiz. Bak\u0131r tepsi bende. \u2018Dindin\u2019ler, \u2018dondon\u2019lar, \u2018dindon\u2019lar, \u2018dondinler\u2019; k\u0131vr\u0131m k\u0131vr\u0131m, b\u00fckl\u00fcm b\u00fckl\u00fcm olur. Bamba\u015fka sihirli bir d\u00fcnyan\u0131n kap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7ar bizlere\u2026Bak\u0131r tepsiyle hemhal olup ezgiyi ve oyunu y\u00f6netmek sanki (t\u00f6vbe yarabbim, t\u00f6vbe) tanr\u0131 kat\u0131ndan d\u00fcnyay\u0131 seyretmek gibi gelir.<\/p>\n \u00d6l\u00fcml\u00fclerin d\u00fcnyas\u0131na ini\u015fin s\u0131rr\u0131 ke\u015fkektedir. Sizler tabaktaki halini bilirsiniz. Hem de \u00e7ok iyi bilirsiniz. \u015eirince\u2019den, S\u0131\u011fac\u0131k\u2019tan bilirsiniz. Ama ta\u015f dibekte d\u00f6v\u00fclen bu\u011fday\u0131n, et ile b\u00fct\u00fcnle\u015firken \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 kokuyu bilir misiniz? Bilen varsa bu tarafa ge\u00e7sin. \u00d6k\u00fcz arabas\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015fen karpuza d\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcr insan\u0131. Sadece ke\u015fkek mi?\u00a0 \u00c7orbalar, vardar, nohut, k\u00f6fteli patates, a\u015fure; saymakla bitmez.\u00a0 \u0130\u015fte, d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn demek e\u011flence ve yemek (benim i\u00e7in \u00f6zellikle de ke\u015fkek demekti)<\/p>\n Ya\u015f ilerledi. Art\u0131k tepsidir, d\u00fcmbelektir yak\u0131\u015f\u0131k almaz. Ama, \u0130zmir\u2019in sefertas\u0131 gibi apartmanlar\u0131 bile \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131n d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcnde ke\u015fkek yapmam\u0131 engelleyemeyecek. Yapaca\u011f\u0131m ke\u015fkek, sak\u0131z gibi olacak. Et neresinde? Bu\u011fday neresinde? Anlayamayacaklar. \u00dczerine bir de hafif ac\u0131 k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 biberli ya\u011f k\u0131zd\u0131ray\u0131m; sizin ellerinizi, benim ayaklar\u0131m\u0131 ba\u011flas\u0131nlar oturup afiyetle yiyelim.<\/p>\n Bu ak\u015fam k\u0131na gecesi var. Yar\u0131n K\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n nikah\u0131 olacak. \u00a0Allah\u0131m\u2019\u0131n g\u00fcc\u00fcne gitmesin, havalar da \u00e7ok s\u0131cak gidiyor. D\u00fcn\u00fcrler de ba\u015fka yer yok gibi bizde kal\u0131yorlar. Olacak \u015fey mi? Tam 10 ki\u015filer. Amma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesizlik. Ama; Damad\u0131m\u0131n hat\u0131r\u0131na olamaz diyemedim. Yukarda Allah var Damad\u0131m \u00e7ok iyi: Nerden bileyim?<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Ke\u015fke\u011fi de bitirdim. Bir g\u00fcn \u00f6nceden yapmak iyi oldu. U\u011fra\u015ft\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc. O tela\u015f i\u00e7inde ilgilenemezdim. Misafirler masada, bizimkiler koltuklarda yiyecek yeme\u011fi ba\u015fka \u00e7are yok. Kalabal\u0131k bir yandan, s\u0131cak bir yandan.\u00a0 Ben tela\u015ftan tad\u0131na bile bakamad\u0131m, bizimkiler pek y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakmad\u0131 ke\u015fke\u011fimin. Tabaklar\u0131na dokunmad\u0131lar bile. Olsun D\u00fcn\u00fcrler \u00e7ok be\u011fendi. \u0130kinci taba\u011f\u0131 bile hepsi yedi. Hatta \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc taba\u011f\u0131 isteyen bile oldu. \u00a0Nerden bileyim?<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Bursal\u0131lar. Ke\u015fke\u011fi nas\u0131l bilmezler anlamad\u0131m? Memleketin neresine gidersen git, herkes ke\u015fke\u011fi bilir. Bozaya benzetmi\u015fler hafiften. Valla, biz de boza bilmeyiz. \u00dcnl\u00fc \u0130skender kebap\u00e7\u0131 varm\u0131\u015f, onun \u00e7apraz\u0131nda varm\u0131\u015f bir bozac\u0131. Hep kuyruk olurmu\u015f \u00f6n\u00fcnde. Koyu yaparm\u0131\u015f bozay\u0131. \u0130\u00e7mezmi\u015fsiniz de ka\u015f\u0131klarm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u0131z, verdikleri k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir ka\u015f\u0131kla. Ondan \u00e7ok sevmi\u015fler bizim ke\u015fke\u011fi. Nerden bileyim?<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Nikah\u0131 yapt\u0131k. Rahmetli babas\u0131 g\u00f6remedi, karde\u015fi ku\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ku\u015fatt\u0131. K\u0131z\u0131 al\u0131p gittiler. Ne de olsa \u2018gelinal\u0131c\u0131\u2019. Yine de \u00e7ok a\u011flama s\u0131zlama yapmad\u0131k arkas\u0131ndan. Bizim k\u0131za di\u015f ge\u00e7irmek kolay de\u011fildir. Kendini ezdirmez. Zaten damat da \u00f6yle ezecek biri de\u011fil. Nerden bileyim?<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Eve d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fte bir tabak ke\u015fkek istedim. Tela\u015ftan tadamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m bile. Sitem etmeye kalkt\u0131m bizimkilere; ke\u015fke\u011fime burun k\u0131v\u0131rd\u0131lar diye. Amaaan yok efendim ek\u015firmi\u015fmi\u015f de, yok efendim bu s\u0131cakta ke\u015fkek yap\u0131l\u0131r m\u0131ym\u0131\u015f da? Ka\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 dald\u0131rd\u0131m ke\u015fke\u011fe. Aman Allah\u0131m ke\u015fkek de\u011fil sirke\u2026 Nerden bileyim?<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Ah, onlar da ek\u015fi diye \u00e7ok sevmi\u015fler me\u011fer. Boza ek\u015fi olurmu\u015f. Akhisar\u2019dan sonra Gelenbe yoku\u015fu diye bir yer varm\u0131\u015f. Bizim ek\u015fi ke\u015fkek, ba\u011f\u0131rsaklarda mayalamay\u0131 orada tamamlam\u0131\u015f ilk. Herkes olmu\u015f bomba. Bomba ne kelime; Atom bombas\u0131 olmu\u015f her biri. \u015eof\u00f6r duuuuuur. \u0130stikamet tarlalar. On ki\u015finin hem g\u00fcvenli yer bulma hem de saklanmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma \u00e7abalar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcn.\u00a0 Her a\u011fa\u00e7l\u0131k alan, her benzin hane; duuuuur. \u0130stikamet \u015furas\u0131\u2026 Duuur istikamet buras\u0131\u20264 saatlik Bursa yolu olmu\u015f mu 8 saat? Sekiz saat sonra \u201cya\u015fas\u0131n evimin helas\u0131\u201d\u2026<\/p>\n Ek\u015fimi\u015f ke\u015fkekle bozay\u0131 kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131rm\u0131\u015flar. Nerden bileyim?<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Din don don. Din don don. Din din din din. Din don, don don\u2026. Nenni. \u00dcmm\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm. Ninanaynom. 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